Emma my love

Hi! Meet Emma, My girlfriend. The most amazing soul, the most beautiful girl that I always admire and so lucky to have in my life. And I find myself the most fortunate ever for having to get to know her.

We have been together in a long distance relationship for over a year and 8 months, very soon our second anniversary.

Let's go back to 2019 in the late Autumn 8th of October, I can't remember the time but it was close to midnight and My Sister had her Instagram account logged in on my phone and I was just browsing like you often do, then I see a message pop up, it said "Did you have a good day?" I mistakenly clicked on the notification and read it, so I replied back and then it started. And that's how it all started. As days went by I could see the girl she was, She had it all. The passion, the love, the determination, joy, she could light up an entire room. I was unsure of the development happening in the relationship, to be honest 'scared and so much insecure. But she would always be there telling me how nothing matters and two people just need love to keep going. And somehow deep down I was always scared to love hard, I was scared of the situation, I was scared of what would happen if nothing worked. I was scared of my own personal reasons, this thoughts made things get in the way. I couldn't give everything, I believe I needed some time more to give everything and 

She wants to live wonderfully, fully, boldly showing her love to the world. She is a perfect being rejuvenating everyday in every way, which many people mistaken for being crazy, when it is actually the opposite,the showstopper, she kept calling herself crazy. My little princess, My baby She was never crazy, and never could be. The world doesn't deserve her, nor has anything beautiful to offer to her for she belongs in paradise dancing and singing with the angels. She is an Angel, a celestial, an Illuminant that brought light into my life.Making me believe how strong love can be,I have always been naive,I have never known how to love, nor have received any, as she gives me which enriches me from within and never have thought I could see wonders and get that warmth feeling of loving someone. 

I have always been inexpressive, this relationship has brought out the best of me and I am still trying to be the best for her and I will keep on trying to get better everyday. I love her so much and I will always want to shower all my love to her to make her the happiest.

we argue at times and our communication stops, but our love doesn't. when you love the person so much you know it could hurt the most but you know that every pain is worth it if it;s with your favorite person. And she is my favorite person and will always be. 

"how beautiful she is, 
everything seems
brighter when
she's around"

She was ready to love it all, to be vulnerable. To Love anything even when she knew her heart will be done wrong and possibly broken. I have broken her many times and every tear she sheds because of me leaves a scar on my heart and I would do anything to heal her, make her feel better. We're insecure, we both have been and it's okay because at the end only the both of us matters. I might complain how much I hate this distance because I hate not being able to hug her, hold her, kiss her, look into her soul beautiful eyes, dance with her, sing with her but all this anticipation and patience will pay off someday when I'll finally be able to feel her in my arms. Looking forward to that day.

A beautiful cake she baked for me on my 21st birthday, I couldn't have asked for anything more, the chocolate and candles are amazing but the amount of love she put into this is

even more amazing.

From receiving love packages to having a ring made in my name she has done everything a person would ever want, completely overwhelmed with all the love and care.

" her unconditional love so pure 

  there was nothing she could never cure

  her ocean eyes, I always allure

  like the rising sun she shine

  always my beautiful sunshine"

I send her love songs, songs which gives meaning to me now when I listen to them with her presence inside me.

"I never felt, I was never oblivious too

I never felt so brave, never so sure of anything

before you the words, falling in love

was never right in my eyes

I knew they were, until I met you

I believed in it until 

I saw my self running into your arms"

this love note from one of her packages was so beautiful that I decided to write a song with this being the first verse of the song.

It was her 16th Birthday and there was nothing special to give her, and my package wont be reaching to her anytime soon So I sent her this song I wrote and I'm glad she liked it.

It's just so sad, I couldn't maker her birthday so special and not give her 

Deep down I know somewhere she isn't so happy and isn't receiving that love she craves, I've been trying and trying. I want to give her everything and I will. She deserves all the love in the world and I will give that to her. 

the stars and moon in the sky never seemed so pretty to me not until it reminded me of her.

the rain the sunshine, so beautiful when it reminds me of her.

The amazing love story just like she always wanted romantic, running away somewhere far, just the two of us, watching the sunsets together, dancing in the rain, making pan cakes, breakfast in bed, making love with equal passion and joy, rejoicing the moments and time together.

"We made love outdoors, my favorite place to make love, assuming the weather be fair and balmy, and the earth beneath be clean. Our souls intertwined and dripping with sweat"

 

"You Are My Sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away"